He Changed Me

I have shared my testimony (I Am Beautiful in the Christian Stories section) with many people, and talking about it is not hard for me to do.  This Easter at my church we had Cardboard Testimonies in our last song of our Drama Presentation, in which about 12 of us had where we had been on one side of a piece of cardboard and when we flipped it over, where we are now.  Mine said, "Childhood crisis led to low self-esteem" and then "God healed and restored my broken heart".  I do not get nervous easily, but I was scared to death to do this.  Not a lot of people in my church knew about what had happened to me and while I was not afraid of questions or anything, the thought of standing up there was terrifying me! 

I remember watching a movie with Sarah Chalke in it, where she has breast cancer and when she goes in to have her masectomy, she wears red lipstick for confidence........and yesterday, I needed some confidence.  I've always wanted to wear red lipstick, but until I get darker in the summertime, it sticks out like a sore thumb, so I picked out a shade that went with what I was wearing and then I prayed.  I prayed over my lips that whatever I had to say would be what God wanted and that He would give me the confidence I needed........and I put my lipstick on.

So, then I get to the church to do a quick run-through and after we are done, even with my lipstick on, haha, I start to panic.  I needed someone to calm me down, to remind me of why I was doing this and that it was okay.....so my friend Timothy told me he was on his way.......you should read his amazing testimony if you haven't already, it's Testimonies and Tomato Sause....but then church started and I didn't get to see him.  But if you know anything about Timothy, he is an amazing guy....a very godly person and a great encourager.  I have learned so much from him and I just love to be around him because he is always smiling and he is such a giving person.  His heart is as big as his smile, lol! :)  Anyway, I saw him walk in and I thought, "Lord, you knew I needed him to calm me down, and now I can't because service has started, so now what?!"  And then I just began to go over some of the millions of encouraging things he's said to me and I began to feel peace rush over me.

And when it was my turn to go, I did fine...........I didn't even cry.......until our Pastor asked the congregation to come forward and put their own testimonies on cardboard, and I saw Timothy go up and put his on one and stand before everyone too.  He is amazing to me and God is really going to use him......he is going to rock this world with God by His side!  I am blessed to have him in my life.........so, Timothy, if you read this, I love you, you are an amazing, amazing friend, I don't know what I'd do without your smiling face and your encouraging words! :)

I am glad that I had the confidence with my "red" lipstick, and then I am thankful that God used Timothy's words to give me the peace that I needed.  God will supply ALL our needs........for those that trust in Him..........AMEN?!